Audrey Hale, the transgender shooter who killed three adults and three children at a Christian school in Tennessee last spring, detailed her “imaginary penis” in a newly-revealed screed.

“My penis exists in my head. I swear to god I’m a male,” Hale, who had started to go by Aiden at the time of the shooting, wrote on one page in their diary, four dozen pages of which were obtained by the Tennessee Star.

The entry also described Hales’ agonizing experience as a trans man and included at least one drawing, referencing Hale’s desire to have sex with women.

Hale described being raised as a girl as “torture,” adding they feared being “being called a dyke or a f—-t” during high school, the outlet reported.

Hale learned more about trans people during college, and felt like they finally found the solution to their discontent.

“I finally found the answer – that changing one’s gender is possible,” Hale explained in one entry.

Hale’s mother, however, seemed opposed to the idea.

“What she believes, how she grew up, conservatively, and that LGBTQ — especially transgender — was an enigma, nearly non-existent,” Hale wrote.

“I hate parental views; how my mom sees me as a daughter — and she’d not bear to want to lose that daughter because a son would be the death of Audrey,” they added.

They continued to express their frustration at their parents’ refusal to support their transition, and wrote about wishing they had access to puberty blockers.

“I’d kill to have those resources; 2007 was the birth of puberty blockers and a newfound discovery for treatment of non-conforming transgender children,” Hale lamented. “I was in the 6th grade, puberty already hit me.”

“I should not be in this body!” another entry read. “Nothing on earth can save me… never ending pain. Religion won’t save.”

“If God won’t give me a boy body in heaven, then Jesus is a f****t,” the rant continued.

On another page, Hale detailed how they played out their fantasies about having sex as a man using stuffed toys.

“I can pretend to be them [and] do the things boys do [and] experience my boy self as Tony,” they wrote, referring to a “stuffed boy doll” that “is like the boy I am in another form.”

At one point, Hale described becoming so enthralled in their fantasies that they lost track of time and missed a gym session.

“God, I am such a pervert.” Hale wrote. “I waste too much time in my fantasies.”

Hale, 28, wrote the self-hating entry just 16 days before March 27, 2023, when they shot through the front doors of the Convent School and killed three 9-year-olds and three adults.

In the wake of the tragedy, authorities found indications that Hale had become increasingly depressed and even planned on targeting the school one month earlier.

In an entry dated Feb. 28, 2023, Hale wrote, “Convent was closed yesterday. I guess it was [because] of the weather.”

Their entries in the weeks before the shooting had also belied a growing frustration with the politics around gun ownership and LGBTQ+ issues.

“So now in America, it makes one a criminal to have a gun or, be transgender, or non-binary. God I hate those sh–head politicians,” Hale wrote on Feb. 20.

“So now [because] of you, I wish death on myself cause of the pure hatred of my female gender,” they added, stipulating that “with no rights, anyone’s country is a s***** dictatorship.”

In the years before the shooting, Hale ––who attended art school – had been prescribed multiple medications, including the antidepressant Lexapro and the anti-anxiety drug Buspirone, a search warrant revealed. 

They also had thoughts of killing their father and committing school shooting, the warrant said.

Hale also reportedly used funds from a federal Pell Grant to buy guns, according to 99.7 WTN radio host Brian Wilson.

In her final entry dated the day of the shooting, Hale referred to “Death Day” and admitted to being nervous and excited about the pending rampage.

“The day has finally come. I can’t believe it’s here. Don’t know how I was able to get this far, but here I am,” they wrote.

“There were several times I could have been caught, especially back in the summer of 2021,” they added.

A few hours later, Hale’s brief reign of terror ended in a hail of bullets as they were gunned down by Metropolitan Nashville Police Department officers.

The rampage ended in a hail of bullets, with Hale gunned down by Metropolitan Nashville Police Department officers as they shot out of a window at the school.

In the year since the shooting, the families of the victims have pleaded with the courts not to release Hale’s trove of writings, which included a suicide note and at least 20 journals.

“I will not stand by to allow these shooter’s writings be published in any way. This mass murderer doesn’t get to speak from the grave,” Erin Kinney, whose 9-year-old son William was killed in the shooting, wrote last month.